Breathwork Couple Session with Viki

Mid Morning Breathwork Session with Viki was amazing!!

A few weeks ago, I announced the Breathwork Circle that is being held 9/25. As you all know and I will always repeat myself, I share what I have learned and experienced. Due to a pretty packed calendar, today was the day to do the work and I could not have ask for someone better to share this with.

I do not want to give it all way, so you can have this light, open, feeling yourselves.

Viki explains the entire three part breath process, the Spirit Guide cards you choose, the feather that is chosen for you, and guides you through a challenging, emotional, fun, restorative session of breathwork.

The first emotion that came up for me was overwhelm. During the session I started to feel a pain in my lower back, my face was numb as I continued to breathe in three separate parts. My emotions were all over the place. Viki instructed us to scream at one point which was so refreshing and a huge sense of relief washed over my body that magically washed the lower back pain away. This meditation eases the mind so the body can call up and let go. It moved so much stuck energy to create healthy energy. So much healthy energy the screams turned into laughter and a peaceful mind. I was holding so many emotions in, and they are finally gone.

Viki explains how this can be done at home and how often you can do this so that negative energy and emotions do not linger. Let’s face it, it takes one situation to close it all off again.

Card Pulling!!! I love to pull cards. These were different. Animal Spirit Guides joined us today; and holy COW!! Mind blowing. Nope, I did not pull a cow. I pulled a Raccoon Card and my feather was The Hawk. I will let Viki explain how the feathers are chosen.

The Raccoon-Talented, Shadowy, In Hiding. In brief, it indicates talent, tenacity, and skillfulness with a particular musical instrument or creative tool. Which Viki explains in detail. Its shadow side points to an unresolved issue around self-image and success. What if I am ready to grow into something more? Raccoon energy won’t let us off the hook until the creative ego fear is resolved. Hmm. There is much more, but again; I don’t want to tell all about the Raccoon Card 100%.

Viki does a wonderful job explaining everything from the card, to the breath. If she finds you are struggling during the session; she will come over to make you comfortable and take you back to your breath. She is extremely knowledgeable and gifted.

Having Matt by my side participating made it more special. I was nervous at first because I was not sure what emotions I was going to release and why. It was great to share this with him.

Here’s what Matt had to say about the Breathwork Session with Viki:

“Not knowing what to expect, I walked out floored by the experience. It’s one thing to breathe, it’s another thing to learn how to breathe to connect with and learn about yourself. It was amazing. I immediately felt relaxed and confident with Viki as our guide. I look forward to seeing what else I can learn with the guidance and knowledge of Viki”.

Join Viki on 9/25 for a self-healing practice that has been called “years of therapy” in one session and is open to everyone.

So, bottom line; if you are feeling stuck, overwhelmed ,and/ or have a busy mind, this is for you. Bring a friend, hubby, wife, or family member. You don’t want to miss this!!

I am so grateful to Viki and all the amazing people who bring their knowledge and experience to SUKHA. Thank you for providing me with the tools to do the “work-in”!!

Healing one day, one breath at a time.

xoxoxo

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Happy Imperfect Mother's Day

What a great weekend of celebrating. My baby boy turned 14 and today we are celebrating Mother’s Day. Every day is Mother’s Day. Happy Mother’s Day to all of you hard working, multi-tasking, beautiful, strong, sometimes under appreciated, talented, mom’s out there.

Happy Mother’s Day to my beautiful mom!!! I know I was not easy and guess what? Some days it is coming back in full force to bite me in the ass. But that’s okay. It’s full circle. Thanks for putting up with my shit during my younger years and even sometimes now. This strong mind of mine just keeps getting stronger. Thank you for doing what you did back in 1981. I am not sure the three of us would be who are today and where we are in life if you stayed. Working your ass off. I get it. Boy; do it get it. Full Circle for sure. Anyway, thank you and I love you. Have a Happy Mother's Day!

Before I continue to write, I would like to share something from a “unknown author”

“Mama, you were given these children. You—no one else. You were given these children because you are who they need. You have the soul to love them even on their hard days. You have the motivation and love to give to these children everything they need. You have the heart to wake up every morning and do it all over again, even when you are exhausted. You have the smile that they crave and the touch to make everything okay. You are their sunshine and their comfort. You are theirs, and they are yours, Mama. On the days you are questioning yourself, remember this…you’ve got this.” ~ Unknown

Yes!!! We’ve got this!!! There are so many days when we may think we don’t. There are days where you just want to run. Days where you are not sure how you are going to possibly handle everything. Days when you forget to pack lunches, baseball hats, give lunch money, forget to wash their favorite jeans, days when you don’t feel like having 6 teens over the house because you don’t feeling like dealing with 6 more sets of hormones or maybe the house isn’t clean enough or you just don’t have enough food in the fridge to feed 6 more mouths. But, it’s okay. We are human. We are superheros and some days we lose our power but it is only just for a moment.

There are plenty of sleepless nights. Worrying if some idiot that’s drinking and driving will run off the road and not see your kid on their bikes. Stressing over how you are going to pay for the next set of braces, the next trip to Spain, cars, college. Thinking about grades, parties, games, friends. The list is endless. What guess what? We’ve got this!!! We are strong, powerful, we are natural nurtures. We are doctors, taxi drivers, therapists, cooks, teachers, accountants, a voice, ear, and the eyes of amazing people that came out of us!! Think about that. WE CREATED!!! We created, we teach, we learn, we practice and we continue to share in hopes that our children turn out to be just as AMAZING as we are. But guess what? We need show that we are not perfect, show our flaws and teach them that it is okay.

I read a blog a while ago that inspired me to write what I am going to write.

I am sorry that I will NEVER be the perfect mother.

Everyday, I wake up knowing that Kelsey and Patrick deserve the best. Kelsey and Pat, I hope you read this one day.

I love you both will all of my heart and soul and I hope you know that. I am so blessed to have smart, talented, funny, beautiful, respectful teenagers. Some days, I am simply amazed at how amazing you both are and I  wonder “How the “F” did this happen”. I am proud. I am happy. I am blessed. But I am far from perfect.

I am sorry you did not grow up in a “traditional family”. But this is the road we were meant to be on. I have no regrets at all, but this is what  you needed even if our situation is different than your friends. You are simply two of the most wonderful young humans I have ever met. Not perfect, but that’s okay. 

I would fight for you and die for you.

I am sorry to the things I have to say no to. It’s rare and there isn’t a whole hell of a lot I deny you of. If I can make it happen, I will and I am in the process of doing so. Sit tight. 

I am sorry that in the past, I dragged you to before care at 6:30 am and after care until 6:00 pm and being so tired and slightly grumpy when we got home.

I am sorry some nights, I was logged on working remotely. I am sorry I dragged you to work with me on Saturday’s.

I had to and will continue to work. I am not perfect. But now I finally have the flexibility to pick you up from school, attended games, cook dinner almost every night and be there for you. Some days and nights I have to teach, and get work done when you are home. I hope that one day you understand my drive, motivation and determination for my why’s, and I hope it’s contagious for you in your future. Good work ethic is hard to find these days. If I can teach you a few things; I hope you have the ethic and drive to work hard at whatever you choose to do in the future.

I am sorry I was so tired that I just did not have the energy to play catch or bake with you at the time you wanted, but I am so glad that I did make the time and push myself to get out there enough times to make memories to practice, bake cookies, color or watch I Carly, Power Rangers,  because it was well worth it.

I am sorry for yelling at times in the past, present and I know I will continue to raise my voice in the future. But I promise that I will take a step back and remember to breathe. Remember that I love you. I am your parent, your disciplinarian and then your friend. I am not perfect and I am not a “Disney Parent”. You will understand what that means one day when you begin to figure it all out.

We are going to fight. We are going to disagree. You may not like me some days and I will not like you at that present moment, but the only thing we can do is know that these crappy moments will not last forever.

I am sorry I was not a honor student and can’t help you with all of your homework. Continue to study hard and work “your way”. I will guide and support you but this brain just doesn’t function well with academics and I am not embarrassed to say so. Continue to study and work hard. I am proud of the both of you for the achievements you have made so far. Keep it up. Don't "B" so hard on yourself if you get a "B". 

I am sorry some days the fridge is slightly empty.

I am sorry for not buying the junk food you crave, and going out for ice cream every night in the summer. Outings like this should be a special treat and a special moment. Not a demand or a habit. One day will thank me for the healthy lifestyle, I can promise you that.

I am not sorry for signing and dancing to Johnny Cash in the kitchen back in the day and singing Kenny Chesney with the top down in my jeep present day. I hope that one day you will remember the silly things and most importantly to sing and dance like no one is watching and not give a shit if some one is. Why? Because it feels good. "I hope you dance" "Now and Forever."

I am not sorry for posting selfies on my Instagram page because one day you will look back at them and be proud of me. Continue to share your stories. Follow the real, genuine stories and keep scrolling through the ones that portray themselves to be perfect. It's called False Advertising.

I am not perfect and to be honest, I am not looking to be. I am not the perfect mom, friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, and boss. I will curse. I will go out of the house looking like a slob. And I will continue to take all of my hard work in the home and outside the home seriously.

I don’t need a big house, a fancy car or fancy clothes in order for people to think I live a perfect life or think that I am a perfect mother. There are days when I get nervous that my imperfections will somehow transfer to you. But guess what? You don’t need someone to show you perfection. You need someone to show you what REALNESS looks like. Realness is meant for the three of us. Real. Honest. Genuine. Low maintenance.Slightly Messy. IMPERFECT. This is US!! In a peaceful, happy, quiet, no frills, small kitchen house.

I am not sorry for not being be perfect. But I WILL NEVER BE SORRY for doing the best I can to continue to raise two awesome teenagers every day. Play hard. Study hard. Work hard. Laugh hard. Live hard.

I love being your mom even on the crappy days. It’s going to be a bumpy ride, but in the end you will realize that perfect is so F’in boring and does not exist.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the IMPERFECT mom’s out there! Have a great day today and everyday!

Be Happy

Be Healthy

Be Strong

The Proud, Imperfect Mom