May You.....

The birds are chirping
The flowers are blooming
Children and young adults are itching to get out of school
The smell of the ocean, the sun on our faces
Walking outdoors to all of our familiar places.
Mothers are celebrated. And birthdays too.

Diplomas will be in hand.
The month of May is oh so grand.

May you….

May you feel everything and attached to nothing.

May the wind be on your back and the sun shine warm your face.

May you realize it’s okay to not be okay.

May you know when to say yes and how to say no.

May you learn from all of your mistakes.

May you follow your heart and your dreams without any one trying to bust them at the seams.

May you get up every time you fall
Dust off and try again.

May you have faith and understand that there is a plan for you.

May you take the time to heal all of your wounds.

May you live in the present and not in the past. This life we live goes way too fast.

May you find stillness in this world of chaos.

May you smile big even when no one is around.

May you sing and dance and act like a clown.

May you grow and flourish at your own pace, and remember that life is not a race.

May you learn, practice, share and teach. Use your gifts to help those in need.

May you one day find your voice. Always remember you have a choice.
It may take time, and that’s okay. Talk less observe more. Be a sponge. Listen.

May you treat your body like the greatest temple in the universe. If something’s not right, listen and take it a step further.

May you find comfort in your skin and walk with your head high.

May you be Authentically perfect imperfect and not follow the crowd.
May you find joy in the little things like the smile on your kids faces or the smell of fresh flowers and not the material things.

May you take time to be alone. Read. Write. Meditate.

May you be independent and able to stand on your own two feet. Remember, dependency is for the weak.

May you live your life your way without hesitation or guilt.

May you be happy
May you be healthy
May you be strong



Release, Detox and Letting Go

What a week!!! 

Emotions, cord cutting, detoxing, flowing, and releasing. Even though it's November, it has been a great time to let it go. "Out with the old, in with the new". We have been releasing early.

We cut cords this week with people, places, situations, and emotions so we can move on from them and let them go energetically. It does not mean we do not love or care about them anymore. Cord Cutting is a process that severs that negative attachement between you and another person so that the shadow of that relationship does not hang over you or affect you in the present.

Who do we form cords with? There are major and minor cords. Major cords are formed with:

Lovers, spouses (exes and present), children, parents, siblings, close friends, abusers, or any sexual partners.

Minor cords are formed with: clients, teachers, bosses, co-workers, and friends.

You definitely know who you have the most toxic cords with. There is a certain negativity attached to the relationship, no matter how much you love or respect that person.

Tuesday night, we each wrote a list of the people, places, emotions and situations we needed cut. My 1/4 sheet of paper was full. From my x-husband to my family members. My home, that I have so many emotional attachments with, fears of romantic relationships (which I am happy to say that I am almost there) and the list went on. 

This was a week of detoxing.

I am proud to say that I did my first ever three-day cleanse!! Many have looked at me and said "Why"?

This cleanse has NOTHING to do with weight loss. In fact, I don't own a scale. Scales drive people CRA CRA!! STOP weighing yourself my friends.

 I have been experiencing horrible headaches on my right side for weeks now along with exhaustion. And, it does not have anything to do with getting up early and teaching. I have always been an early bird. 

After the Inversion Workshop, I spoke to Maria who is also a Holistic Health Counselor and she told me about a juice cleanse. 

I decided to try it thinking that maybe I needed to detox and flush out my system. There are five fresh juices a day for three days. They are YUMMY!! Day 1, EASY. Day 2, hard, Day 3; BRUTAL for me!!!! I felt weak, dizzy, and hallucinating. Thank goodness for a friend that pushed me through and encouraged me not to give up. I didn't. I finished. I am proud and thankful.

Before I spoke to Maria telling her about my experience on day 3, I was saying to myself "How the fuck do people do this"? This is crazy. What a horrible feeling!!! I NEED FOOD!!

Maria told me this was how my body was detoxing. Everyone is different and reacts a different way. It has nothing to do with how much I weigh or how active I am. It was the toxins releasing!!

Most of you know my eating habits. I love food. I eat. All in moderation. I don not deprive myself of anything. But it was time. Time to clean. Time to release.

This cleanse was much needed. Just like the cord cutting meditation.

Today was the first day of food. I ate. I taught three classes, slept for two hours, cooked a healthy dinner and I feel like a million bucks. I have not had a headache since last night.

Don't wait until the New Year to cut cords, detox and release.

"I do not know anyone who doesn't get a good feeling when they hear the following words, LIGHT, CLEAN, BRIGHT, HAPPY, ENERGIZED". You have just begun a journey towards feeling all of these." It is the way to go"-Maria Preuster

 

 

The People, The Music, The Energy, The Flow

As most of you know music is a big part of my classes. Every playlist reflects the dharma talk of the class. Creating the playlist is so much fun, and rewarding. Time consuming? Yes. Worth every minute? Absolutely.  Honestly, I could not imagine it any other way. Some are harder than others. Some days, not every song reflects the dharma.

Thank you to those who have participated in the past. Thank you to those who randomly shoot me a message with song requests. Keep them coming. Some love country, others; not so much. Every playlist is carefully chosen to be certain that the SUKHA Family leaves happy!! Happy with the flow, the music and most of all the message. 

This mornings 6:00 am class inspired me to write about the music, the dharma, the dancing, and the singing! A full class of 25 amazing people, the SUKHA room was filled with positive energy. From new students to the people who have been on this journey with me since day one.

The dharma was about AURAS! The electromagnetic energy that surrounds people.

I am so blessed to be surrounded by so many people with strong, positive auras. To have a strong, powerful aura means you have a strong, healthy body, well-balanced psychological and emotional health and a spiritual maturity and strength. 

Having each of you walk in that room between 5:20 am and 5:55 am, smiling, laughing, and talking to one another (so much that I must ring the bell) is rare. SUKHA is special. It is uncommon. ALL OF YOU created this "REAL STUDIO" that has positive energy and a good aura! Thank you. I can honestly say, I don't think I have EVER seen anyone walk in  those doors unhappy. 

Here are a few songs from today's class:

Silver Springs

Snake Eyes

Lights

Blinded by the Light

What's the Frequency, Kenneth?

Electric Avenue

She's so High

The Way You Make Me Feel (SUE ANN ROCKED IT)

Unbelievable

Black Magic Woman

Bette Davis Eyes

Creep

Young, Wild, and Free

Cleansing Aura

Be happy

Be healthy

Be strong

MB

 

#whatmakesyousmile

#whatmakesyousmile

A hashtag I have been using for a few years on Instagram. Taking a pictures of things that make me smile. From sunrises to sunsets. My children. Yoga. Nature. My life.

So I decided to use the theme as one of my Dharma Talks during my classes.  Asking my class, my students, my friends, "What makes you smile"? Everyone participated with answers ranging from their children to walking on the beach. I love when the class participates and decided to take it a step further. The wheels were spinning on what I should do to take this a step further. A video testimonial of what makes them smile? Hmmmmmm

That Sunday evening my instant messenger on Facebook beeped. It was a message from one of my students. Bridget Petrulla. A student/friend that started taking my class in January. The message read: 

"I want to speak on your video that goes viral!! I want to say my happiness is now yoga! I want to say thank you for letting me learn to like and trust myself again! Your classes have made me stronger than I ever thought I could be. I came home and was teaching my kids yoga and they loved it! I have you to thank for that. Thank you, thank you for letting me love yoga again, thank you for letting me feel good about myself again, thank you for welcoming me into your class and spirit. I am truly inspired and you make me want to be a better person. You came into my life when I truly needed you.. It's amazing how things like that happen. So again, thank you, thank you."-Bridget

I was so touched by the message. But it wasn't me. It was Bridget. She found the courage to get back on her yoga mat. I was able to provide her with a comfortable place to practice yoga. A room with four walls and a great group of men and women.

Because of my love for taking photos and posting them on social media I have decided to take photos of each student that would like to participate in the "#whatmakesyousmile " SUKHA campaign.

Because Bridget was the first to respond, we met early Sunday morning for a photo shoot. She was nervous, but confident. Her poses were amazing. She has come so far in such a short period of time. After sending them over to her, she messaged me back; "I hate to admit it, but I think I actually look pretty good"!! ADMIT IT!!! You should. You look amazing". Yoga builds confidence, self esteem. We all have our insecurities. I get it. I still do. It is a process. Even this time in our lives. Moms and dads. Focusing mostly on our children. Make time for yourself. You are a reflection of your children. Be happy. Be healthy. Be strong.

Thank you Bridget!! I am so proud of you and I look forward to continue to guide you through your practice.

 

99 lbs, 110 lbs, 120 lbs, 180, lbs, 160 lbs, 140 lbs..I have hit them all!!

Yep!!! I have been all of the above!!!  

 

My first real weight gain was my freshman year in college, coming home for Thanksgiving with the added 15 lbs from beer, pizza and all of the Ramen Noodles I could possibly eat.  One comment at a party motivated me to run the bleachers at St. John Vianney every day with my brother until it came off. Loosing the weight quickly and headed back to school I stayed motivated and started running. I began to realize that my weight was never going to be consistent and that I had to really work at it and watch what I put in my mouth and exercise daily. 

My second biggest, was pregnancy! Obviously. But I would have never thought that someone with my build could get so big!!! 180 lbs with both kids!!!  After my first, it took 6 months to come off. After my second, it took a long, long time. I was in a size 18 down to a 6 within one year. Still not the size I should be for my height and build.

I have been up and down with my weight since College.  Taking care of myself has always been a priority for me. My mother will still tell me that I started putting Oil of Olay on my skin since I was 2!!

The purpose of this post is to share that I have been all sizes in my adult life and it does not come easy. 

I am focused 

I am motivated

I am vain

I love food.

I do eat bad from time to time. (Did someone say PORK ROLL FRIES??)

I do drink alcohol occasionally.  (LOVE BEER)

I do yoga everyday 

I row for 10 minutes twice a week

I go on the stair climber twice a week for 10-20 depending how I feel. (I hate this machine) JK

I walk weather permitting

I ride my bike weather permitting

I do things I love to do. 

I am active. It is hard for me to sit still.

I don't sit or lay on the couch.

I don't watch TV

I am 105 lbs today and I could be 115 lbs next week. It all depends on what is going on with my body. I am not shy to say that I am going through menopause at the young age of 44. It started 2.5 years ago with the hot flashes and night sweats. It comes and goes. I refuse to let it change me mentally and physically. 

P.S-Obviously I am not a writer, and I am not trying to be something I am not.  Just sharing a few bits and pieces of ME! Big or Small