As I was listening to my favorite childhood songs, and looking at one of my hash tags on Instagram #iamwhatiam. I asked myself; who am I? And I started to type. Today, I shared this list to my yoga class. It was difficult to read in front of 20 people at 6:00 am. As my voice started to crack and my lips quivering, half way down the long list I felt a huge lift off of my shoulders.
Try it. Just start typing. Who are you?
Who am I?
I am a 44 year old female. I am a cancer
head of household
I am happy
honest. brutally at times
I can be...
cold hearted at times
stuck in my ways
mean (if needed)
an unhappy child who became and grew into a happy adult
I wish I had my father around as a child
I wish he showed up on my wedding day
I wish I spoke to him after he bailed and didn’t hold a grudge.
I wish I spoke to him before he died to tell him I was sorry and that I love him
I was a bad student, who became a self motivator
I ran away from home for 6 months
I was bullied, made fun of and picked on as a kid and became a confident, beautiful woman
I was a smoker and a party animal. I never did drugs.
I went to school in Boston for Fashion Merchandising
I lived in NYC
I had a 10 year career in the jewelry business as Account Executive. And traveled to India monthly
I was a stay at home mom
I was a wife and will probably never be one again
I was a Director of Business Development and Marketing Director for large auto groups
I am divorced
I am addicted to life. Never addicted to drugs or alcohol. Came close after the storm.
I am addicted to self care, yoga, and any other new experiences that will come my way.
I love sunrises and sunsets and taking pictures
I love my children and watching them grow
I love having talks with my 13 year old daughter
I love watching my son play sports
I love teaching them about life. Real life.
I love the relationship I have with my x husband and the decision I made to leave him. He is one of my best friends.
I love my house
I love to walk, ride, paddle, run and hike
I love nature
I love to travel
I love dive bars
I love pasta
I love making people feel good about themselves
I love to motivate people
I love ripped jeans, a flannel and a baseball hat
I love the smell of coconut
I love music. All music
I saw Motley Crue 9 times
My favorite movie is the Wizard of Oz
I love quotes
I love getting up at the crack of dawn
I love getting up at the crack of dawn to teach yoga to an amazing group of people who I call my friends
My house is not spotless. It's lived in
My jeep is the same
I don’t care for liars. Lie to me; and I always find out. (call it part witch or good intuition)
I don’t care for gossip
I don't like politics
I don’t like fake people
I don’t kiss ass
I don't like anchovies or Indian food
I don’t stress
I don’t worry anymore. It gets you nowhere
I take one day at a time
I don’t have a crystal ball to see the future, nor do I want one
I have done things I regret. But they are lessons learned. And it is all part of growing up.
I am what I am. “Don't judge me until you know me, Don’t underestimate me until you have challenged me and do not talk about me until you have talked to me.
This is me.
I am what am I.